Monday, May 2, 2011

Strength: A true test

There are times in every life when things are less than perfect  completely falling apart.  Times when it seems like all that can go wrong, will go wrong and it seems like the clouds will never lift.  We are in that phase, my friends.  And it's a dark, dark, place to be.  I feel as if I've suddenly had this huge weight dropped on my shoulders and each day it gets heavier and heavier.  My tendency is to internalize the hard stuff.  Absorb it into myself and protect those around me from having to take on any of my personal burdens.  Meaning I push people away.  This, however, is not possible with where I am currently finding myself.  I need all the help I can get.  And prayers.  My problems are not enormous in the grand scheme of things.  They are not terminal or in any way related to my health, except for the toll that stress takes, of course.  It instead involves the dearest things in the world to me.  My children.  They are healthy and happy, so no worries there and I won't go into details.  I just want to say that I have the primal urge to protect them.  Shelter them for as long as I possibly can.  And it makes me crazy when someone messes with that.  I'm being tested.  For what reason, I'm not sure.  I only know that somehow this is meant to make me stronger.  It would be nice to have some real answers, though. 

With that being said, I would just appreciate all of the positive thoughts and prayers to be sent my way. 

Before the craziness began on Sunday, I was able to get this project completed for a currently unspecified location in our home...

 Those flowers are made out of crepe paper.  I am in love with the look of it.  Now I want to cover everything in crepe paper flowers.  but this thing took THREE rolls!  Still super cheap, but VERY time consuming and I burned the begeezus out of my fingers with the hot glue gun.  Hot mess.  But isn't it so lovely?

and I spend some time at this place...photographing a wedding for a beautiful couple.  This is one of my happy places...my husband and I were married on this beach as well.  It was a gorgeous morning and something just soothes my soul when I stand beside the ocean.  Very cleansing for me.  Wish I could do it every day!

I will have more pictures soon to show from the wedding that I photographed...hoping to get some peeks up tomorrow!

Thanks for listening to me ramble.

2 comments:

  1. Praying for you sweetie. I have faith that this will work out. Love you

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  2. This is STUNNING!!! Your work is lovely!!

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